Friday, November 21, 2008

Lurking in the dark.

In my search for adult entertainment (get your mind out of the gutter!) during the day while staying home with my darling children who are oh-so-intellectually stimulating, I have taken up my father's daily tradition with a "morning read". I go to my sites that are saved on my favorites or on my blog and I read what other people are writing and doing.

These sights are not only a wealth of information, they are a connection to the outside of toddlerdom world. A community of like-minded people that I find interesting. And they comment to each other and get to know each other, become friends and lend support.

But I lurk in the darkness, on the outside, voyeuristic like. I find postings that I would like to comment on, and then a little voice in my head, an evil, ugly, vile voice that says ever so smugly,
"You have nothing to contribute. Who wants to hear what you have to say? You know nothing and your comments will be mocked by all others. Why don't you just go back to your own little blog and keep your thoughts to yourself?"

I know! So mean!

Soon I will creep out, regardless of this stupid intruder to my intelligent self.


W. Keller said...

Hey Daughter! Two thoughts, first it is "sites", not "sights" - and you a teacher and all!! :) Tisk, tisk!

Honestly, I always love your insights. You look for depth, reason, background - truth! I loved how you taught that to your students, how they would push me when you let me talk to them. How they demanded answers, not just words. You have lots to offer, don't be shy!

I really loved babysitting last night. I could become addicted pretty easy!! :)

Justin said...

Hey, you need to lay the wood to those thoughts! I enjoy reading your blog and comments, so don't let the turkeys get you down!

carrie said...

you listen here. you are smart and funny and thoughtful and even my sister loves your blog (and believe me that's no easy accomplishment she told me i should stick to a journal). anyway, i feel the same way. i told you about my comments on the standard times website right? i was so nervous and sometimes i even type a comment and hit delete! let's make a deal to be brave and if someone writes something mocking you send me the web address and i will write back to them and you know how vicious i can be (remember i look for dust in people's houses). anyway, i love you and yor writing so keep it up and trust yourself!

Trenches of Mommyhood said...

Reach out - you won't be sorry. There's truly a community here in the blogosphere. I haven't regretted a moment of it in the 2+ years I've been writing!